It's the end of the year, that time when our lives become infused with celebration and ritual. These are not bad things, but it's interesting that they dominate this time of year.
One explanation, of course, is that we ritualize the most meaningful events in our lives, be they happy or sad. Weddings, funerals, sports championships, the National Book Award. All highly meaningful occasions that are also highly ritualized cultural affairs.
But there's something in particular that happens at new year's, wherever crowds are gathered. It's that moment in a crowd, right at midnight, when the prevailing isolation among strangers gives way, and everyone celebrates as if they were friends. People who don't know each other suddenly hug and high-five. Maybe they even kiss. You share a story with the person next to you.
Why does this happen?
The answer, or what may be the answer, came to me one New Year's in New York City. I was in Central Park when midnight came, with my sister-in-law's sister. There were fireworks, and we had snuck in a bottle of champagne. The trees were strung with lights, the buildings along Central Park West made their own skyline, and a horde of ridiculously over-enthusiastic runners were completing a 10K road race, turning the otherwise magical scene surreal.
So there we were, watching the fireworks, pouring champagne, toasting the new year and the luck we hoped it would bring, and that moment came, and suddenly I'm talking happily to the couple who happened to be nearby, and we're all joyfully wishing each other a happy new year. I looked around, and everywhere strangers were hugging, raising their glasses, looking each other in the eye. And it struck me -- the particular joy that is drawing the strangers in the park together so ecstatically is the knowledge that we've made it through another year alive. We'd collectively cheated death for another year! That's why everyone was so ecstatically happy. Or, rather, that was, perhaps, at the bottom of it.
My theory might also explain why this moment of shared peak celebration doesn't arrive until midnight -- because until then death still might get you (don't want to count your chickens) -- and also why it is so fleeting -- because in a few seconds you're already into the next year, and then death could once again strike at any time, meaning everybody better get their guard back up.
But for that instant, you're immortal. In that moment, death can't touch you. That, I think, is part of what gives new year's celebrations their kick.
Or maybe thankful people celebrating a joyous occasion just become really friendly. That could be it, too.
Well, that was a long way of introducing my participation in a popular year-end ritual: The Listing of the Favorite Books, which is the internet blog version of hugging a stranger when new year's strikes. Maybe strangers hugging at midnight on new year's also share book recommendations. I don't know. In any case, I don't read widely enough to presume to know the best books released this year, so I will just list a few favorites from among those I read this year, along with a line or two about why they stuck with me. If you'd like, list your favorites in the comments, or e-mail them to me at seancarman@speakeasy.net and I will post a separate list of reader faves.
Here are mine:
The Forever War, Dexter Filkins -- A poetic book about the horrors of war, and a beautiful example of writing that lives on the border between fiction and nonfiction.
Zeitoun, Dave Eggers -- A heart-breaking book that, in its way, is also a healing book. Dave Eggers deserves a Nobel prize.
Hurry Down Sunshine, Michael Greenberg -- I discovered Michael Greenberg this year. He is, to my mind, a perfect writer, and this is a masterpiece of a memoir.
Jacques the Fatalist and His Master, Denis Diderot -- Like reading an 18th Century McSweeney's story.
The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, Stieg Larsson -- I admit it: I enjoy living vicariously through a paunchy middle-aged business journalist solving Swedish hate crimes.
The Adderall Diaries, Stephen Elliott -- Every sentence in this memoir is a work of art.
Housekeeping, Marilynne Robinson -- This story is as still, deep, and beautiful as the mountain lake at its center.
This Won't Take But a Minute, Honey, Steve Almond -- Part cathartic soliloquy about writing, part flash-fiction collection, and it also happens to be the crest of a future publishing wave.
Here's to a great 2010.
-- Sean Carman

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